It was spring 2014, and my car was repossessed. You've probably heard me tell this story before, but I felt propelled to share it again.
How would I overcome this significant obstacle?
At one point, I was on the floor crying as worship music blared in the background.
A few days later, I saw a glimmer of hope that God had heard my cries. The stony heart that was once there was removed, and for the first time in a long time, I felt the presence of God. Smack dab in the middle of a storm, God removed the mask from my face and allowed me to experience Him in the fullness of His glory. He exceeded my expectations of what accepting Him would be like. I didn't have to be perfect as I had believed for so long.
This was no ordinary encounter. This was the goodness of the Lord.
It was breathtakingly beautiful.
And an empowering moment for me to learn how to breathe again in God.
Usually, I tried to serve God in my strength and ability, but this time was different. Instead of trying, I allowed God to be who He was to me, my Heavenly Father. This moment put me in awe of God, and I was never the same from that day forward. I was no longer pinned to the pain and trauma of my past, and I started to rapidly move in spiritual growth in Christ. There was no fear of God but reverence for who he was.
I knew May was my time to become a different woman.
When I returned to the bosom of my Father in heaven, I discovered my true beauty and power in Him, myself, and the community.
Even today, I am still overwhelmed by the goodness of God.
After nine years of walking with the Lord, I still hear Him whispering words of wisdom.
He shapes and molds me into who he created me to be. The Bible says, "I am the vine; you are the branches. If you remain in me and I in you, you will bear much fruit; apart from me, you can do nothing." John 15:5
I don't have to change myself, but I can join with God and allow Him to train me.
The inner work God has done in me is powerful and is much-needed. It pushes me to keep going because I know how I used to be.
I can stress less, trust God more and thrive in every area of my life if I submit myself to Him.
When faced with a life challenge, the hardest part is not knowing what will happen or how it will all work out.
We can't see the future.
Or if the dots are going to connect.
When this happens, our mind goes into overdrive.
—am I going to be okay?
—is God going to come through?
—will I have to go back to what I've known?
But here's the thing: Over the nine years I've walked with the Lord, I've found that God ALWAYS comes through for you.