At the beginning of the year, I felt disconnected from God. Have you ever had that feeling? He seemed so far away. I was wondering where He was...and all the time He was wondering where I was. I hadn't prayed about the new season I was in of motherhood with a newborn. I was also trying to juggle marriage and school. Everything was colliding together, and I was overwhelmed.
God knows our thoughts. "O Lord, you have searched me and known me! You know when I sit down and when I rise up; you discern my thoughts from afar." Psalm 139:1-2
Even though I wasn't praying, God listened to me. I remember feeling this tug after my six-week checkup to get back to the church. I felt myself drifting into a sunken place. It was that Sunday back that the Lord convicted me on several things.
I was more concerned about what I looked like returning to church and less about the condition of my heart. God realigned me with His perfect will and way.